Day 26: What Kind of Person Attracts me and Why

There are a few things that I find incredibly attractive in a person, particularly someone of the opposite sex. 

Me myself being a very outgoing friendly person, I'm not particularly attracted to assholes. I mean, being a little tough and having a strong personality I don't mind, being a straight up asshole I do. 

Generally one of the first things I notice about a person is their smile and laugh. I find sense of humor incredibly attractive. I'm a goofball and I tend to have a weird, off and twisted sense of humor at times. I try not to take life so seriously and I don't take offense to every little thing. Honestly, I don't get easily offended in general, I know the world doesn't revolve around me and not ever pun or joke is about me. In any case, if someone has a great sense of humor and knows how to laugh and laugh at themselves as well, I see that as a very attractive quality. 

Second, I find a strong presence attractive. Someone who exudes a good sense of self, who is pretty confident in themselves. Self deprecation is definitely not something I find attractive. And someone who is not afraid to speak up, have a real conversation and likes to have a good time.

Of course there are also some general physical attributes I find attractive. Pretty eyes are a big plus, if a person has nice eyes I find that attractive, the color is not really a factor. And from my blog post a couple days ago, I thinks it's fair to say I find the tall, dark and muscular man pretty damn attractive haha. But that's just the initial pure "hotness" lust kind of attractiveness. A guy that looks like that could just as easily be an asshole who has no sense of humor and is very dry....which in turn would turn him into an unattractive person. 

I also find ambition very attractive. I don't find loathing, lazyness and zero ambition attractive at all. When someone has life goals, aspirations and strives to better themselves as a person in their life and their career and for themselves, I find that incredibly attractive. I myself am a very ambitious goal oriented person, so complete apathy is not something I like in a person. 

And finally general kindness for others and all life forms. I find people who are kind, not just to humans but to animals, an incredibly attractive trait. Someone who is mean and has complete disrespect for other life forms I find a very ugly person in general. 

Day 25: Someone Who Fascinates me and Why

I can't say there is one single person that truly fascinates me so much that I feel the need to talk about them. There are some people I guess I find interesting, but I can't really say there is a strong fascination with one single individual. 

I guess in general I would say I am a little bit fascinated with celebrities in general. Not in the "oh I'm so jealous I want their life" kind of way. But more like in a curious sort of way. I wonder, what must it feel like to be so incredibly famous that you cannot live a normal life. I mean, so famous that you can't even just walk out of your house and go to the nearby mall and have a personal day of shopping without being bothered, like I mean, people like Angelina Jolie or Scarlet Johanssen or George Clooney, that would just be impossible. They would need to have their own mall build just for them. They can never go anywhere in the world probably without being recognized. I mean unless they wore a costume that covers their entire face, their life will never be "normal". I don't know how I could live a life like that. But then I guess people like Jolie who was exposed to the "celebrity" life since birth because of her parents wouldn't be as foreign. But lets say someone like Jennifer Hudson, who at one point in life was just the girl from the neighborhood who no one even knew her name except her local friends and family. The suddenly like within months she has worldwide fame, within a couple years she wins an Oscar, I mean, that's just nuts! Just unimaginable. That's why celebrities fascinate me in general, I don't think I could handle that kind of life.

Day 24: My Favorite Movie and What It's About

This one is really tough because there are many movies that I really love. I don't know that I can actually say I have a favorite. So I'm just going to take a stab in the dark and pick the first one I can think of that I love........

FOOTLOOSE....the original! Not that piece of crap new one that they re-made, ugh. 

It's about this kid (Kevin Bacon), his mom and him moved to a new town with his mom's sister and her family (husband and a couple little girls). 

But this is no normal town, it's an UBER religious time which seems to have this weird thing where their pastor or bishop or whatever you call it is like the town "leader" (cult much?).

So Kevin Bacon being the rebel he was, got to his first day of high school blasting his music and all the other kids were looking at him like he was an alien. Then after school he was driving on this dirt road in some side street and blasting his rock music in his old ass yellow beetle and he got stopped by a cop. The cop then informed him that music was Banned from this town and Kevin Bacon got in trouble for getting "snippy" with the cop, LOL.

He then found out that because of the death of this kid, who happened to be the son of the town "leader" died in a car accident while coming back from a concert and listening to that devil music.

He was also the brother of his love interest, the girl he wanted and couldn't have but eventually won over, and happened to be the daughter of said town leader too. So now dancing and rock music were banned all together from the town, you could just listen to classical music and live like you are in a convent LOL. 

So of course pretty much the entire movie is about Kevin Bacon getting cozy with this chick, he teaches a dude how to dance, there's a crazy tractor race scene, he does a super solo dance in an empty warehouse and he works on finding a way to win over the religious dude and convincing them to let them have a prom. Of course there's drama, a crazy ex boyfriend, town people crying foul at this rebel kid etc....

Then the final scene ends with "LET'S DANCE!!" and Kevin Bacon gets all the high school kids to finally open up and get their Footloose on!

.....yes I love this movie hehe.

Day 23: Pictures of 5 Guys that are Famous and I Find Attractive

Yea yea, a couple of these will be cliche, but I don't care, these men are insanely and brutally hot, they can kidnap me any day!

5. Benjamin Bratt....those eyes, and that smile, goodness

4. Dwayne Johnson....aka: The Rock.....whose fantasy Isn't he in?

3. Vin Diesel....yummy is all I can say, I'll jump on...I mean, in his ride any day

2. Common....most recently I fell in love with this man, he's so damn sexy!

1. DON OMAR....my fantasy obsession....I would seriously have this man's babies....drooooolllll

Do we notice any sort of pattern here? LOL

Day 22: How Have I Changed in the Past 2 Years

This is a pretty loaded topic. And it might sound contradicting at the same time, but I have changed so much in the past 2 years that I have gone back to being who I used to be, but a better version of me....make sense? I shall explain....

Two years ago, April 2010, I was physically in the same place, I was in the same job, in the same apartment, driving the same car, etc. But mentally I was in a much different place. I was getting ready to finish my Master's Degree at that point, so I had a sense of accomplishment, but there were several other aspects of my life that felt off, like something was missing, it's like when you walk out the door and you just know you are missing something but you can't put your finger on it. At the same time I was struggling with some personal relationship issues that were hidden under a cloak, but were to soon be completely uncovered. 

I can say that there were a couple clearly defining moments in the past 2 years that caused me to completely change my life. 

The first change came when I finally forced myself to face my views on relationships, mine in particular. You know that saying "doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result is the definition of insanity"? Yea, so in retrospect I was a little nuts....for about 10 years. I was forced to confront one of those situations where you just want to run away, but after so much running eventually it catches up to you. It's funny that sometimes when you are finally forced to confront your own fears and do something you never thought you could or something you fought so hard never to do, you realize it was actually the best thing for you to do all along. This step in my life was the beginning of a new life for me. 

The second change came shortly after the first. That missing piece that I talked about earlier, this is when I figured out finally what was missing. ME. I was the one that was missing. My true person down to the core, somehow in the previous 10 years that big piece of who I truly am as a person got suppressed, by none other than myself. They say you are your own worst enemy. After the first big event in my life, I began to really look internally at who I had become, who I wanted to be, then who I really am. And who I really am is a strong, driven, vibrant, friendly, outgoing, compassionate and passionate individual who thrives in the presence of people she loves. I have always been this, my entire life. Sharing myself and my life and making memories is what truly makes me happy in life and what made me happy in the past. And somehow it had all been hidden away. My first instinct after experiencing one of the most painful times in my life was to reach out. Although it wasn't necessarily an easy task mentally. Over the years I had become very detached from people around me. So reaching out to people I hadn't as much as emailed with in several years was the cause of a little anxiety. But going with the theme of changing my life around I decided to put that anxiety aside and took that step. After reaching out to the first person on my list, things just seemed to slowly start falling into place. I began to remember what were the things that I really enjoyed doing just for me. I began to rebuild friendships and find my social life again. I felt like a fuzzy picture that was slowly staring to come back into focus. And in the process I felt a renewed sense of strength and confidence in myself. 

As a result of these different moments in my life in the past 2 years, my views, my outlook and my approach to life is at a different level. I've reached a level of confidence in myself and my life that I never had before in life. As I mentioned in a previous blog post, I'm always striving for bigger and better and to move forward in life, but although I'm not perfect and my life is not perfect, I am happy with who I am and what I'm doing and where I'm going with my life, and I can say that with perfect honesty and conviction =)